RED Pyro (Mori Momo) (
notintehkitchen) wrote2012-01-21 10:14 pm
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[Voice]
It feels great to be back in my own body! I've missed using my hands so much. Now I can eat bacon and open things again! Really, those two things are very important!
[There is a squeak in the background.]
That's right, Jell-O says he is happy to see his mother back too. I wonder who was taking care of you while I was gone?
[A few more squeaks come across the feed.]
No one? Did you behave yourself?
[There is no more squeaking.]
I'm taking that as a no. Alright, who's brain matter do I have to clean up?
[There is a squeak in the background.]
That's right, Jell-O says he is happy to see his mother back too. I wonder who was taking care of you while I was gone?
[A few more squeaks come across the feed.]
No one? Did you behave yourself?
[There is no more squeaking.]
I'm taking that as a no. Alright, who's brain matter do I have to clean up?
[Action]
It's not that. You're ver—
[He cut himself off, taking another breath as he rotated his shoulders, trying not to think of that feeling of a hot flame against his lips.]
Look, even if we didn't work together, this wouldn't be appropriate. You—
[Another cutoff. Suggesting she find someone her age in Paradise seemed laughable, given that most people he'd met were older than her or talking animals. Somehow, he didn't think either of those was any better than the two of them. At least they understood one another, both being mercenaries. She knew how important the job was to him, that he wasn't just some crazed gunman hellbent on murder.
He caught himself rationalizing an unprofessional relationship with her. Shaking his head, he tried again.]
Well, when we get back—
[And another stop- when was the key word there, but it could easily be replaced with if. There was no guarantee they'd get back to Sawmill and their time at all, or if they'd go together or even remember their time in Paradise if they did. It didn't really matter what he did then, did it?
He shook his head again, alarmed at how easy it was to bat away his concerns when the temptation of having her pressed against him danced in front of his eyes. He wasn't weak, he told himself. This was ridiculous.
He was silent another moment, trying to put together a good defense, or a plan, or anything.]
[Action]
Between Engineer, Medic and now Sniper; those walls seem to be breaking down her childlike personality at times.]
You seem to be having trouble with your words. If you are unsure yourself, perhaps you aren't doing something so bad after all.
Sniper doesn't have to be around me if he doesn't want to. It just seems he does with the way he responded to me. If you thought what you did was a bad idea, wouldn't you not act that way in the first place?
[Action]
And she was right, of course- he was unsure, as much as he loathed that feeling and admitting to it. For every excuse he had to avoid getting involved with anyone- her in particular- a reason it was acceptable to cave to his carnality cropped up, raw desire conflicting with the standards he put before himself.
He sighed audibly, his breath rattling out of him as his body shook from a combination of the cold and pent-up frustration.]
I need time to think.
[Action]
[Shaking her head, she placed her hands over her face and spoke with a muffled tone.]
I won't allow it. I won't. Why does everyone I like leave me? You didn't do anything wrong. Isn't this just how humans act normally? You aren't to blame for it. Neither of us are. These sorts of emotions, sometimes they end up happening whether we like them or not!
[Action]
That didn't stop her from latching onto him, of course. He was already feeling the pangs of guilt again as she brought up those she had lost. That was something he could relate to on a level more personal than he'd ever admit, and was the primary reason he didn't get wrapped up with others. He couldn't feel the loss of someone he never cared for at all.
Something in him stirred at the thought, however; he was sure he was just empathizing with her predicament, was all. Nothing more.]
I'm not going away, pumpkin. I just need to clear my head.
[Clothes on and crutch under his arm, he hobbled for the gate, still keeping his eyes off her. It was easier to deny her if he avoided her eyes.]